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Howdieeee…… something I learnt from my guru in NYC…!


But its been two months n m feeling the need to vent it out…. Long time I wrote… n long time u read… :P


These past two months have been quite eventful… some good… some bad... some evil…


I finally gave my Level 2 in CFA…wouldn’t talk a bit about the papers or my expectations here… anticipating in volatile markets may be injurious to investments….! :D


I went for a walk last evening… the same time that I used to go a few months back….! Things had changed quite a bit…! M not quite referring to the infrastructure or the cleanliness in particular.. but the people whom I would normally see around were quite different…. It somehow seems after sometime that u belong to that place cause you can identify with the people around you. You may not necessarily talk to them or even know them…. But faces cannot be forgotten easily… one tends to connect well with them….!


My grandmom passed away a few days back.. on 1 June… n it was painful…. I lived with her for 25 years n a sudden realization that her room is empty and will remain so for the rest of my life left me numb…! Whats worse… I had to go for her cremation. For some reason I am a bit of a thanatophobic, I am scared of looking or thinking about death. And there it was my grandmom lying on the ground. The whole process was depressing and it hits you on the heart. We had to move her to the crematory.. on the way we had a whole lotsa people trying to give her a shoulder… she was known to all in the vicinity and every single person had come down to pay her homage. When we reached the ground… there was already a fire place set up for her. We laid her with a stone on our heart and logs of sandal wood around her body. And finally… for the last bit of the ceremony... we had to pour ghee on her to set her ablaze. Aah…! That was too much for me...I could not tolerate that scene n stepped back in a sec… I was in a trance… perturbed and agitated… how could one be bold enough to burn someone one loved and lived with all through ones existence…! I felt the pinch quite strongly but my eyes could not succumb to tears. We stood by and watched. For a while I did interact with people around as they were relatives or neighbors. But on my way back home I was reminiscing the harsh moments just gone by. Man…!


With such events you probably feel more strongly for people you relate to in the present. Be it friends or neighbors or most importantly your family… you empathize the pain of losing any one of them and recoil to your guard against loneliness and a life without `em… oh… its painful…! You wanna reach out to all your dear ones and make sure they’re safe. They are your happiness…! They are who make you..! they are you..! you cannot lose yourself…!


In Mahabharat when Yudhisthir meets Yaksha at the enchated pool, one of the questions he answers very wisely which I always recall very distinctly is:


Yaksha asked: Who enjoys happiness contentment and tranquillity? What is wonder? What is 'path'? What is conversation?


Yudhisthir replied: Happiness: A man who is not burdened by debts enjoys happiness contentment and tranquility. Even if he eats cheap foods after five or six days he remains happy contented and tranquil. WONDER: Everyday people are going to the abode of 'Yama' (dying), but the remaining people still have desire to live. This is the greatest wonder. PATH: Following the way shown by great people is path, because one does not reach anywhere by logic and debate. Also because there are many 'Shrutis', numerous opinions of sages and the element of religion being engulfed. CONVERSATON: The lord of death by stirring with a big spoon (months & seasons) in the stew pan which is like the great attachment and churning it by the fire (Sun), in the fuel (day & night), is conversation.


But life moves on… and so should we… :)


Talking about my thanatophobia… I would like to inform you guys that despite it being so.. I love action movies. That’s cause they're unnatural n m so fine wid that superfluous killing and murders and conspiracies n stuff… If you are a great fan of these Chinese movies the way I am.. you will realize they are way more bundle than our Bollywod flicks and people get alive more often than in our saas bahu shows…! I mean in one scene you have a flying jackass kicking the hell out of our hero.. n in just few scenes later u realize the hero is back.. n back with vengeance n more skills than ever to give back the moron a lesson of his life…! Wat a fight…! The miscreant flies from west end to reach the east n the Hero begins from south n collides with him midway and the turbulence can be felt by all around on the ground..! LOL! I wonder if Rajni would get a complex here..!


I was watching this movie a day back called the Golden Compass.. Its got Nicole Kidman in it as the antagonist n a child actress who is the protagonist. Somehow this kid called “Ms. Lyra” seems to be normal and yet abnormally filled wid super powers of seeing through an “Alteir..Altheistom… Alietosmeters…” (I forgot the name of the instrument.. it was basically used to "measure truth" with three needles in it to frame a question and needed brain power to look through the watch in it to know the truth of the stuff… man that was super strange.. :D)… Now basically there are all these tribesmen who want this instrument n remain in the awe of it cause it reveals a lot…but the problem with all these men is that a) hardly any one knew where it was.. b) when they did get it through the kid, only one knew the method of using it but could not ultimately use it cause of the block in his head…! Eventually the kid asks them to hand it her n teach her the method of using it… she masters it n keeps the Alte.. Alto.. Althei.. damn.. the ”instrument“ (better) with her. yeah..!


There is also a real stupid scene where Ms. Lyra is asked by a mascot to approach a Warrior Ice Bear to accomplish her I didn’t understand mission… Now this bear has a name too which was more complex to pronounce than to pronounce “pnuemonultramicrospoicsilicovolcanoconiosis” (Aaaaaa….LOL!) The bear speaks in super fluent English n is abandoned in the streets there cause he lost in a single war against another Ice Bear… He is a paid worker in the streets (the pay was some barrels of whisky to let him sleep.. :| ) He is lying there cause he was tricked off his armour and he has decided that he will be there only until he hadn’t found his armour (although I failed to understand when he ever invested the time in finding it n where did he ever go to find it). Now when the girl comes face to face with this fact.. she quickly looks into the “instrument” and tells him that his armour was lying in a museum two street across the lane... a fact hearing which the Ice Bear scampers to get it n comes out screaming n ferocious with his armour…! Then he signs a verbal contract with the star child to give her company until he dies or until she accomplishes in her he didn’t knew mission, whichever was earlier…! The girl smiles and feels victorious…! LOL! WTF…!


Life is crazy man…! Anyways… Do keep reading and commenting.. I got a lots to share..! :D